A Big, Fat Disappointment

After getting accepted to graduate school a few weeks ago, yesterday a ‘we regret to inform you’ letter showed up.  I was immediately suspicious due to the thinness of the envelope.  The letter said that the scholarship was very competitive.  It was such a disappointment and a blow to my ego.  My grades were good; I work at a library; my age either helped or hurt; I’ve traveled overseas.  Was it my essay?  Was it truly that competitive?  Is there a waiting list in case someone ends up not enrolling?  I may never know…but I do know that I still love my job; I am happy with my life; and I can now enjoy a stress-free, no pressure, relaxing summer while I plan my next move.  It will be embarrassing to show up at work and let everyone whose been rooting for me the news of my failure.  Ugh – being confident can really backfire. 

 

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